Struggle

Sometimes I look at my life and wonder what can possibly happen in the next few years.  I get frustrated that there seems to be no anchor or stability in my life boat, and that I am just plowing forward into something I can not control or anticipate. 

Even as blessed and marvelous as my life is, I become disappointed. Most often with myself.  I am disappointed in my lack of will power. I am disappointed in my lack of courage in sharing my faith.  I am disappointed in my inability to be a good wife to a husband who is adoring and patient. I am disappointed in my struggle to deal with new people in an un-awkward way.  I am disappointed that I so often feel afraid. I don't like being afraid. It stinks.

This morning I desperately needed a lift to my spirit.  My mind and heart felt heavy and uncomfortable.  I remembered fireside I attended my second year of college that had affected me at a time I felt everything around me was punching me right in the face.  I listened to that talk again this morning.  I'm punching back again. 

Jeffrey R. Holland has a way with words and with the spirit.  It is a long video, almost an hour, but if any of you are struggling to find faith, peace, or just want to feel close to the spirit of God, take an hour and listen.  (I did it while I cleaned my bathroom and folded my laundry.  It helped me even through the chemical fumes :) )

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